It's been far too long since my last journal.

I've been more or less absent from DA for rl reasons. Life tends to happen when you're busy planning it, right?

That is DEFINITELY the case for me...

and I are no longer together, though we remain very close and best friends. /(same person) and I dated briefly(two months) and he knocked me up. I'm currently 25 weeks and two days, or about 5 1/2 months, along in my first pregnancy with a baby boy. He will be named James Nathaniel

I've moved back to Wisconsin with my parents and ~Jerrymcm/~Flugelschlag and I are no longer together. I am single. I have a very part-time job that isn't able to pay for food let alone my doctor bills for this pregnancy. I'm trying to get state aid to pay, but I haven't heard anything back from them about my case so... yeah...

That's everything in a nut shell.

Questions? Comments? Concerns?

Holy crap, I can't believe it's almost been SIX MONTHS since I moved to Washington x.x

And I've nary said a word to you all since ;; Sorry about that... Life kinda caught up with me, you know?

Anyway, those who actually STILL watch me know I've been uploading a few deviations of late. Some stuff I've been doing lately.

You've seen my crocheted amigurumi, right?


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Well, I've been thinking of making a crap load of them for either Sakura Con or Anime Centeral next year Hoping I can get a table now to sell my stuffz. Speaking of which, what should I MAKE for the convention? I was thinking of making pokemon heads like the Bellsprout that I made and the Dragonair I plan on making. Five pokemon heads from each generation, a few pokeballs, and some other stuff. I need help figuring out the other stuff.

Suggestions?

YAY!

Okay, so I've finally moved to Washington. I've spent every single day with my lovvie, , since I landed on the 24th. I've met and his family. I'm living with his mom, and they're both really cool

I'm honestly happier now more than I have been in... Well, ever. I really think my life can finally move forward and I can be happy where I am and with who I'm with.

I'm so lucky to have everyone here that I do that love and care for me. It really is such a blessing.

Merry Christmahanakwanzika and Happy New Year to all in the coming week!

And Merry Yule to those Pagans out there, even if it has already passed!

Happy holidays to all!

Despite all the commercialism of the last two months of the year, I find that the holidays are more than what lies under the tree, or what's cooking in the oven.

The holidays are about joy, giving, family, that warm fuzzy feeling you get(no matter how small) when you've made someone's day that much better just by smiling to them and saying hello.

I know it sounds cliche, and maybe it is. But it's also true.

I learned at an early age(despite being spoiled rotten by my parents) that, although getting gifts is nice, giving gives the giver a much better feeling than any monetary gift ever could. Material possessions aren't what make the holidays merry. It's the cheer, hope, goodwill toward your fellow human being... Being in the company of those I love and care about is all I ask for every year, because it's all I really need. I don't need new shoes, or a watch, or a new game or console. Just spending time with my family is enough.

I'm lucky enough to be spending Christmas with my boyfriend, , and his family in Washington. I haven't seen him in over two years and I'm thrilled to finally be going over to meet his family in person for the first time. I'm lucky enough to have people over there who care about me and are willing to do so much for me. I haven't even met them face-to-face yet, and I already love them like they're my own family.

Not everyone is as lucky as I am. Many people will, unfortunately, be alone for the holidays in some shape or form. No one should have to be alone.

So, for the holidays, I ask my watchers this: Go to the drop down menu beside the Deviantart logo in the top left hand corner. Click on the random deviant link. And wish someone, with all your heart, a warm, safe, and happy holiday.

It'll make someone smile, help them feel more cared for, and more than likely make their day. Repeat, if you wish, though I only ask you do this once. Maybe by spreading some holiday cheer, you'll become cheerful yourself

Again, Happy Holidays everyone, and a safe and Happy New Year~

Good morning, kids. It's six in the morning where I am! I've gotten 3 1/2 hours of sleep, and I don't have a screaming child to blame

What does it matter, you ask? If I haven't any children to care for, why should it matter if a young and spry woman like myself should worry about getting very little sleep on a Friday night/Saturday morning?

Well, because you see, I have a job. A job that requires I be around young children ages 0-17, and adults 18 and over on a constant basis, taking photos in a very small and cramped room where there's loads of equipment, lots of warm bodies, even warmer temps, and I'm forced into wearing sweaters because the work uniform is black on black on black. Sleeves, nice pants, neat appearance. This job also requires I play diplomat and manager of people's lives for an hour or two while I help them get ready for their photo shoot, take their photos, show and sell them their photos, and, if we're running late which almost always happens on weekends, apologize and promise free stuff to cranky parents with crankier kids and get bitched out because their child didn't smile or cooperate.

Working retail/customer service jobs suck Especially during the Holiday rush/season.

And being nice, courteous, polite, and overall perky sunshine during a late shift on 3 1/2 hours is incredibly difficult. Not impossible. Just difficult.

Also, I've been unable to really eat much. Nothing has been agreeing with me. thinks I'm nervous about finally moving over to Washington to be with him after almost 3 years of trying to get me over there. I leave Christmas Eve afternoon, and will be there Christmas Eve night. So in less than a week, I'll be leaving almost everything I know to go be with the one man I love more than anyone else in this entire world. And I'm content, as well as happy and excited, with that. Even if I am nervous and dealing with emotion like a weird human being by taking it out on my body subconsciously... It's how I've always worked, and as much as I try, I have yet to deal with emotion any other way... So, my body suffers.

Also, my room is hotter than Hades, making it difficult to stay asleep once asleep. Even with the window and door open and no blankets, it's still too warm. I step out into the hallway, it's almost like stepping into a deep freezer. Step back into my bedroom and it's sweltering. Blast my old house and it's weird heating system... My parents need to get Central Air, or something...

Alright... I think I'm done with my ranting now... Hopefully, this'll help.

Winter has set in Wisconsin. I'm sick with a cold, not to mention crampy, and overly stressed because of work. 'Tis the life of a photographer at a corperately owned photo studio.


A bit of good news, though. I'M FINALLY MOVING TO WASHINGTON TO BE WITH , MY BOYFRIEND! And I'll get to meet !


Got pictures done professionally for christmas presents for the family. Christmas shopping has now been completed. No more presents. Just pictures of me and my brother for the family. What? I'm poor x3

ok the rules are put your iPod/MP3 player/playlist/whatever on shuffle. Use the song titles for your answers. No cheating.


1..IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
For Good, Wicked: The Musical

2..HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
The Biggest Dreamer, Digimon Tamers Soundtrack

3..WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Chain, Back-on(doesn't make sense, but that's okay)

5..WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Moonlight Densetsu, Sailor Moon(My life's purpose is a legend?)

6..WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Simple and Clean, Utada Hikaru

7.. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
In Her Eyes, Josh Groban(What about my eyes?)

8..WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Money Bought, Nickelback(I have budgeting problems...)

9..WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
In The End, Linkin Park(It'll all be worth it...)

10..WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Lean On Me, Glee Cast

11..WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Dancing Through Life, Wicked: The Musical(She needs to do this more often)

12..WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
FIRE!!!, Digimon Frontier(He is hot! XD)

13..WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
My Life Would Suck Without You, Kelly Clarkson

14..WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Keep Away, Godsmack

15..WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Follow You Home, Nickelback(Damn right, I'll follow him home >> And rape him in his sleep XD Then again, you can't rape the willing)

16..WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Call Me When You're Sober, Evanescence(How would they be able to if I was dead?)

17..WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Finale B, RENT(Trying to put on my finale, but not quite making it?)

18..WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Get up, Get out!, Godsmack

19..WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Lips Of An Angel, Hinder(It's really no secret I love him)

20..WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Green Whirlpool, Dawn of Mana Soundtrack

21.WHAT WILL YOUR WEDDING SONG BE?
Lithium, Evanescence(Holy shit, dude)

22.WHAT IS YOU AND YOUR BESTFRIENDS SONG?
Tango: Maureen, RENT(Mayhaps XD)

23..WHAT WILL YOU REPOST THIS AS?
God Help The Outcasts, Hunchback of Notredome Soundtrack

So, I've decided to participate in NaNoWriMo.  For those of you who don't know what that is, it's National Novel Writing Month.  Maybe by doing this I'll finally get a manuscript written and something worth reading published.  Doubt it, but it's worth a try.

The goal of NaNoWriMo is to write at least 50,000 words within 30 days.  That's 1,667 words a day.  A daunting task, but definitely possible.  I so far have 250 words and it is late in the evening of the second day of November.  I'm FAR behind -__-  I'll make it up in the week to come, hopefully.  I don't have work this week, so I'll be by the computer a lot more to be able to write.

For those of you who wish to participate, you can sign up here: [link]

For those of you who wish to add me as their buddy, I'm LA_Walker.

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My job at Sears Portrait Studio is stressful.  Whiny kids, even whiny boss, but it's a job...

So much fun

That is all.